But no true friend.
One thing I have started doing is trying to, everyday, do something social. Getting out is important for me. I may be living in France but often I am isolated into a country that only I inhabit. My excuses are as follows; I don't like to leave the dogs alone ( which is a reality, but I can give them a good long walk and then get out myself). I feel uncomfortable by myself, my French is not good enough, I don't know what to do. I am tired is a good one.
I can think of a million excuses not to engage.
Not that the french make it easy. It has been suggested that I join societies. I will look into this. I did join the Meet Up and Internations . The people ( mostly ex pats) all seem like they are living outside of French society. They don't seem to want to get in, like I do. Perhaps the French are used to " ex pats" being that way so assume I am that way too.
I don't like that term ex pat for myself. I am not an ex patriot of my country. I love my country. My country has given me the ability to expand my horizons and grow.
It has allowed for my curiosity and courage. It also provided an environment where people could do anything they set their mind to. I fear that it's not that way anymore. Perhaps I was fortunate enough to be in the right place at the right time, before the US started to go into decline. I learned to be motivated and fearless in a time where you could actually get somewhere being that way. I don't know about now.
Sometimes I think I am on the move ahead of what is happening. I count myself extremely fortunate that I moved from NYC to California in December 2000, before what happened in September 2001. I am now out of my country and watching it devolve from afar. It's very sad.
Sorry to digress....
So, I renew my push to get in. Let's see what I can do...
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